“We got off the plane at Manchester Airport. I was saying goodbye to the players, thanking them. And I’m not an emotional – well, I didn’t think I was. I’m not a really emotional person but my car was parked right outside and I thought: ’I need to get in my car here’. I could feel myself getting emotional. So I get in my car and I just went, started crying, started getting really emotional and I think it was just a mixture of saying goodbye to people for maybe the last time and the pressure that I put myself under. Sounds stupid now, but it’s just not me, it’s just not me at all. I come out the airport and I come at the lights and Nicky Butt has just pulled up next to me and I’m thinking: ’Fucking hell, can’t let Butty know that I’ve just been crying’. So I just give him a little wave and just looked the other way and waited for the lights to go green.”


Life of Ryan: Caretaker Manager is on ITV tonight at 9pm.